If the Lord had not been my help,
my soul would soon have lived in the land of silence.When I thought, "My foot slips,"
your steadfast love, O Lord, held me up.When the cares of my heart are many,
your consolations cheer my soul.
my soul would soon have lived in the land of silence.When I thought, "My foot slips,"
your steadfast love, O Lord, held me up.When the cares of my heart are many,
your consolations cheer my soul.
Ps. 94:17-19
There's not a day that goes by when I do not remember God's help. In every day, before I reached for it, as I needed it and even in the receding waters, his ever present help was strong. My year in the wake of Marianne's death would have been a continuing tragedy without it. Tonight, on this anniversary, my heart is thankful. This year has been heavy and I am tired walking through it. A new day is looming just ahead. It waits so warmly and patiently. Along the way my feet will not slip because of the helper's attentive love for me.
Into the dawn of a new day...soon. I anticipate it readily.
Good night.
Guy - I found your blog via Ben Arment's post today. I've spent the last half hour scouring it. Reading, and looking for your email - couldn't find it so thought I'd just leave a comment here.
I was struck by some things we have in common. My wife died on January 1 of this year, from breast cancer. We had three kids together, who are now 11, 9, and 6. (1 girl and 2 boys) So I am now a single dad. I'm also a church planter and pastor, and a writer. As I read your words, I found myself resonating with every post. There's something about discovering someone else walking where I am that made me want to reach out. I appreciate the tension in your words...of really feeling like you are between two worlds. That's certainly where I find myself these days. I'm inspired by your story.
Much more I could say, I guess, but I really just wanted to reach out and connect. I'm at jerellawATmacDOTcom if you want to email sometime.
God bless you and your girls.
Jerel: thanks for commenting and your email address. I'll certainly be emailing and hope to stay in touch.