Look closely at that present you are constructing;
it should look like the future you are dreaming.
- Alice Walker
I am dreaming of a new day
swallowing tomorrow
the bitterest taste lingers
only until the sweetness of something new
years fall gently like leaves carried by the wind
to a place whispered safely
to a time called forever
you are the reader, the author, the pen
turning pages with hands delicate
write the words that will carry me to the end.
First, let me say that I hope you are all doing well. Secondly, I should say that I’ve missed you a bit.
It has been over two weeks since I have written anything for this little spot on the internet known as allthingsdelcambre.com. The time away felt good, very refreshing actually. The last words written here were of the day Marianne died. Recapping that week was incredibly healing for me. The feedback from many of you was tremendous for me. Like gentle hands reaching down for mine as I reached for the peak of the worst and best year of my life, your encouraging words helped lift me to the summit where I stand now. During the past two weeks, I have taken advantage of pockets of solitude where I have been able to look down and reflect and remember God’s magnificently tremendous love. And you know something peculiar, I smiled, honestly, genuinely and strongly. There is not one destructive thing that can truly overwhelm us. The waves may fall heavy and the sea may toss violently, but the hope anchored deeper than time itself will hold...each and every time, especially when we feel all is lost. That is what has been going on in my mind during the past two weeks.
I would like to fill you in on a few things, changes that will be happening both now and in the very near future. Most notably, the content of what I write will begin to shift. Much of what I wrote about during the first year of our loss was, well, about the loss and how it was affecting us. Obviously, some of what I write about will reference back and continue as we continue on, but we are in a new year. Crossing the anniversary of Marianne’s death did something to me. It set me free. Free to move forward into a new dawning day. In fact, we must; there is nothing to do but move forward. I have said it before in year one, but now I feel it, and I am excited about it. There is so much life to be lived, so many days to be alive in, so many days to experience the depth of love in. The past two weeks have been very different for me. My heart feels lighter and easier. I am recognizing more and more of the same in their lives. This only excites me. My greatest fear was that the girls would be scarred beyond a point of full healing. I was afraid their hearts would always be a bit darker. I think the opposite is nearly true and this overwhelms my heart with joy and excitement. I am not afraid of the days ahead, but am anticipating them as any parent would. This is big for me. So the content of what I write will reflect much more of where we are in life now and going forward. It will be a grand adventure. One that I hope you will continue to be a part of both in prayer and encouragement.
Another change that you will notice is the design and name of my blog. Currently, I have a new site being designed that will be named simply, guydelcambre.com. I felt the change necessary for two reasons. The first being the shift in our lives. I do not really feel that I have much else to say that is really valuable here; not much more that I want to say. That part of our lives was beautiful and should remain that way, not overrun by what our lives will be. I will still own the domain name allthingsdelcambre.com so people who may search for it will still find my blog, but in a round about sort of way. It will still be accessible, but it will redirect you to the new site location. The second reason being that I needed a site that would be more fitting for a writer. This new site will have regular features that I write and I will begin to preview some of the material from the book that I am writing.
Which brings me to an update on my book...
I have seven of eleven chapters written and will soon begin working with an editor. Over this passed weekend, I met with four different publishers in Chicago. Two of the publishers seemed fairly interested. They requested additional copies of my book proposal for their editorial teams to read through and discuss. I should receive a response within the next 30-60 days. This next year will bring more changes as my book will come to completion, and I begin to eventually schedule speaking dates.
As always, I would so appreciate your prayers. We will undoubtedly need them as much as we have had during the past year.
And for the next month or so, stay tuned here. I will continue to write, but in terms of life now. Thank you ever so much for being with us and going with us.
dude. nothing but love.
Thanks, Chas!:)
I will always lift u guys up in prayer i love u guys...im so proud of u ur doing such a awesome job...
So excited about the future for you and the girls; so bright and full of life!! Love you guys!
Thanks, Sandy!! See you guys soon.